I don't wonder why I can't sleep. Tomorrow I go to the big city with a couple of friends to sit around the hospital with some more friends while a very good friend fights for her life. Right now I have no doubt that she will win. Having a 6 way heart bi-pass means that she has been in this fight for quite some time. My heart aches for her and her family. Yesterday she told me that she was fine with all of this. She said that she was ready to either wake up after the surgery or wake up in the new world. Whatever happens she is okay with it. I'm opting for the former cause I'm not ready to be here without her. We need her to help clean up the earth after Armageddon because without her touch it just wouldn't be as beautiful. Prayers, prayers, prayers.
A part of my heart is on the other side of the country with the family of my niece's daughter. Walt's sister's daughter's daughter. Don't try to figure it out. Just know that she is my daughter's age. To young to be on life support because of a heart attack. I haven't seen any of the family for years, but I still feel so close to all of them because of the things we shared in the past. More prayers, prayers, prayers.
This Friday my daughter goes into the hospital for a hysterectomy. I'm actually happy for her because I know it will help her to feel better. I'm not happy that it takes a surgery to do that. The anxiety of it all and more prayers, prayers, prayers.
I'm still trying to recover from the loss of a very good friend. Only a few weeks ago we were listening to her laugh and now nothing. She did leave behind a beautiful family and a legacy of strength and determination. She will never be forgotten. Death takes the life not the relationship. And more prayers, prayers, prayers for those who are suffering her lose. That would be me too.
Another friend in Southern California just underwent a major surgery by donating her kidney to her friend. What a selfless act of kindness. She is doing well now, but I hope she knows how many prayers, prayers, prayers went up for her during this scary time.
There is so much more I could write down, but I think we are all just depressed enough right now. These are just some of the things that are effecting my sleep, but I know for a fact that each of you are also facing things that effect yours. They don't have to be huge like surgery. Whatever causes us anxiety is ours to deal with and it makes life a little more difficult.
This Monday night, those of us who can, will go to the Kingdom Hall to celebrate the death of Jesus Christ. Yes, celebrate. The most precious gift given to us by our god Jehovah was a death. It will be the first time I have done this without my Walt. I will be more thankful this year. Because of that death my Walt and Judy and all who have died can live again.
I love you all and again thank you for all of the prayers that have gotten me through the anxieties of life.
